i just feel so different around you nowadays.u seem like a totally changed person.i've known you for years and this so called 'changed' attitude of yours that you are giving me is something i cant simply accept.im putting my ego down by trying to search hard for any of my mistake that i did but i see none.at first i thought i was just being paranoid but somehow or rather,when i try to be my normal usual self around you,you shunned me away.your body language and the look on your face tells it all.
and yes.
it hurts.badly indeed.
but i held my head up high and just shrugged it off.
im trying to get used to all this because surprisingly,after all that,i learn somthing for myself.
i learnt to love myself more and be independent.this had got me thinking that if all my loved ones were to leave me one day and when i have no one around,i can simply stand on the firm ground and say "im not alone."
i still have me,myself and i.
and with that,i wont depend on others for my happiness.
every single day that passes by is a never ending learning experience for me.
i know in life,we bound to meet or stumble upon someone who will leave a memories that can last a lifetime in our life.they touched our hearts deeply and i feel really blessed for my life is blessed with people like this.
but..
right now,
sigh.
where's the you that i knew?
when i meet you,i feel like running to you and cry my hearts out and to talk about this friendship because i wana know what i did so wrong.
but seriously,it just wont feel the same.
and now gf,it feels as though there's a wall between you & me.
nites everyone.
and its my daddy's bday today!
love you dearly ayah. =)
@ 1:17 PM
